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I finally started to tape up my ceiling and I wish I had a camera to document it with but sadly I still don't have a way to take photos. Anyway I can't wait till I actually get to paint over it because its going to be a sweet design. somehow my room is as clean as its ever been, probably having to do with that I'm going to have to clear out sections for when I actually do paint my ceiling but still I've surprised myself. Hopefully I can think of a way to take pictures by the time that I finish it, I would use my phone but also adding to my problems I lost that too and don't have a replacement or anything, you can still sort of get me at 518-290-0026 (my Google voice number if you know what that is) anyway I can use that on my computer and when I do get a phone again it will work for that too, so just use it as my number. 

school is going surprisingly well for me, except in surprising ways, like that I'm not doing as well as I'd like in history, and the fact that the teacher I actually requested this year seems to hate my guts, normally I like irony but thats just taking it too far. I think after this week is over I shouldn't have too much trouble through the end of the quarter seeing that crew will be over and all I have after that is ski team dry land training. Which means hopefully I get some time to hang out with people, I feel like I haven't seen so many people in so long it might be kind of awkward, I've kind of been shutting myself up to do homework and rowing so I haven't talked to anybody who I don't see in classes or crew in a long time. Thats actually probably a lot of why I'm doing well in school, I haven't really been taking out time to talk to people outside of when I see them during the day, meaning I end up getting a ton more homework done. On a side note I found doing aphorisms in English to be very anticlimactic.

I want to go to a rave of some kind.

Oh yeah, I'm also going back on Strattera (almost up to full dosage), and if I miss a dose it still gives me headaches, like today, fuck today, at least fuck first block and the morning, the rest of it was pretty good.

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Laptop: fixed, Hair: shaved off, Living: in a barn; summer

It is so satisfying when a few months of guessing how to get your laptop to boot it finally just decides to work (right in time to let me do my summer homework on it). Also my laptop sticker collection has expanded (I ran out of room on the top for all intents and purposes).

So maybe a little more than a month back I decided to get a Mohawk that Ryan Hallaran gladly etched into my head, however shortly after during Henley I was shaved by a good number of the guys crew team, so all my hair is sitting in Canada. I plan to not cut it until spring assuming it doesn't grow to look ridiculously horrible uncut. 

And then the defining fact of my summer, The Barn. We decided to rent out our house for track season and didn't have anyone currently renting the other side of our house so we moved in there at the beginning of the summer, then three days later we got people to rent it so after moving all of my things once into another house, within three days I had to move it all again into our barn. Living in the barn has bean, well, an experience in many ways. First off there is no real good bathroom in the barn so I've had to make constant trips out to Stewart's to use the facilities and to the YMCA to take showers. Also there is a garden hose for water, we have been sleeping on blowup beds, and about three electrical outlets that work, one of which taken up by a fridge, and no internet (making me thankful for the data capabilities of my smart-dumbphone). I've been stuck in the barn mainly because I decided fatefully this year to take health over the summer and row over the summer binding me to Saratoga. Now that I've finished summerschool health with a 98 (I'm pissed I didn't get the 99, because it was gradequick's fault not mine, not being able to do fractional grading points) I'm down at my grandparents house in Pennsylvania where I finally have fixed my computer and brought it to a new glory, for anyone who has ever had to re-set up a crashed PC this site is a huge time saver: http://ninite.com/. 

I'm sixteen now and with permit attempting to learn to drive a stick (not easy). Thanks to Sophie Breitbart for reminding me I have a blog and an internet connection simultaneously and am thus able to post now. I wonder when we are all going to get our schedules this year, I'd like to know mine, mainly so I can know which portion of the summer homework to postpone more.

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Protons, Neutrons, Electrons

I’ve done too much of some things And not enough of others Just like all life lovers I’ve changed and changed  and changed and changed From one thing to another I’ve had complicated dealings With complicated feelings And I’ve cut and bruised and torn I made blinds on the windows of my mind  with the time that my back once wore I’m a single person in this universe And I am here to say to you: On the day that I die I’ll just give a smile And fly into the blue...

-The Cat Empire http://tinysong.com/72LH

probalby the best verse of the whole song, and for anyone who I said otherwise to: correction, this is the first song I ever heard by the cat empire

 

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Random stuff from the past few months and week

So I thought the AP exam was fairly easy, and that the essays were pretty unfair in my favor because it was all about thing I knew (reminding me of how the guy gets through all the questions in Slumdog Millionaire for anyone that's seen it), anyways the whole thing where you're not supposed to talk about it is also pretty silly: 1 because it's impossible to enforce 2 because 99% of people do it anyways 3 it's just stupid, especially if this mention counts and they seek me out and void my scores, MUHAHAHAHAHA-the evil that is College Board.

I really wish I would have been able to put some photos in this post but I dropped the family camera when dropping into a cornice skiing the bowls in copper (chalk up a number 2 for cameras ruined by Joshua that he doesnt even own), that and my mom breaking a few ribs were the only bad things about Colorado really. Otherwise USASA nationals was awesome, I got a 3rd place time trial and 9th place finish, and for the first year of skiercross I'm pretty happy with that, also as always freeskiing in Summit County is amazing.

This week I think I've probably spent at least 5 hourst talking on the phone with ATT trying to figure out if I can get the warranty on my phone to work seeing that it just decided to slowly break itself on me. Turns out that because one of two moister sensors in the back is 10% red I can't get any refund: total bull. So I'm getting a new phone now in the mail, hopefully it's a good one.

I find Lifehacker pretty useful, some of the posts on it don't really pertain to me but for some others (mostly cool websites and programs to download) it's pretty much a bible, and I really want to try doing some of the DIY projects posted there too sometime.

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Lack of posting

I really haven't had the time to post to this (or have it now). Actually after today, getting back from track practice around 6:30, I don't believe I'm going to have much time at all for quite some time now. with a combination of a heavy schedule and heavy workouts I think any social activities are going to sadly take a back seat for now, I think adapting to a nonstop lifestyle will work alright for me, I'm only out of practice for a few weeks now, it's getting easier each time I have to. Iv'e got a lot of things to write about and no time to develop them (like how absurd the faculty bathrooms at the high school are), so for now I'll write things down to finish out later. Hopefully I find some places to cut waste and make new time so I don't have to sacrifice, till that, time to ramp up!

Good and bad in the scope of time

A good act in contrast to a normally misbehaved person is often looked upon more favorably than a bad act that ruins a well behaved person. It seems that society places more value on a bad egg going good than it does on a consistently good egg that just got rotten.

This is why Machiavelli stated that if any atrocities need be committed that they be committed in the initial moments of the takeover of the state. people will ignore past atrocities for what they see in the now, and likewise for past good deeds. Anything that you know won’t be looked upon favorably you may as well do now as doing it later will only overshadow any good things that you do now.

People also expect more of people who they can expect such of, they naturally hold people of higher morals to a higher moral standard. people get used to certain people acting a certain way, so that the same act for different people could possibly be seen as favorable or unfavorable depending on who did it. For instance,

When something cannot be

Part of the human condition is emotion and despite it’s many advantages it can have disadvantages. Sometimes people will use an expression to the likes of “no, that cannot be”, this expression is used when someone is in a state of shock; disbelief. In fact the real meaning of this is quite literal, people’s emotions are sometimes so powerful they cloud reality to the extent that they are able to block it out. When we say something cannot be it is because deep within us it truly is not, even though logic and reason tells us otherwise. The person here is entertaining two contrasting realities, one of his or her reason and one of his or her emotion, there is a struggle between the two sides that is usually resolved with a winner when the situation causing the conflict cools off. Disbelief; it is one of many examples of how all humans are capable of small bouts of insanity during their lives. It comes from our evolutionary need for protection, possibly a small case of Dissociative Disorder. It is funny how sometimes our survival can depend on perceiving reality falsely.